Theophilus London “Marchin'” Theophilus London’s new record is filled with impressive guest spots – two tracks with Tame Impala, features from Raekwon, Dev Hynes, Lil Yachty, and Ariel Pink – and on each of those collaborations the singer adopts their distinctive aesthetics and essentially sounds like he’s the guest. “Marchin’,” one of the few songs […]
Knxwledge “amansloveislife_keepon” Knxwledge has an incredible ear for small moments in songs that can stand up to repetition, and take on a very different character when shaped into an indefinite loop. This cut is essentially a remix of the Patrice Rushen song “Remind Me” that zeroes in on its core keyboard riff and jettisons its […]
I've calmed down now but tonight I've been such a wreck.
I was crying and upset because I felt like everyone I cared about would leave me and never talk to me again so I felt like I would need to do something drastic and reckless and self destructive. But I was good and I stayed safe. I was so frantically anxious but now that I've calmed down I'm kinda just depressed and sad and I miss letting my eating disorder take the reigns. Like even when I was in the hospital with a fucking feeding tube I feel like I was so much safer. I had an outlet to my issues and that outlet was not eating and I'm hungry now and that just reminds me of how much I miss it.
I still feel really alone and I didn't sort my meds for tonight or the rest of the week so I need to do that and I need to go to the pharmacy to pick up the rest of my meds and I need to put air in my tires and I just feel so overwhelmed and out of control right now.
For now I'm just going to try to go to sleep.
Xoxoxz